wow, it's been a while since i updated the site or posted any blogs, huh? it's just been lops and work all the way down over here. well, that and the upcoming site overhaul that i've been working away at! here's a WIP screenshot:

a lot simpler, and i think much neater and easier to navigate. i'm also making sure this time to keep the site as accessible as possible. it's taking quite a long time because i have to re-structure everything, and though i'm gonna TRY to figure out how to use a theme switcher, it might take a while - so it's possible we'll lose the cute starry theme... although i literally just realized while typing this that i can just mess with the css and fix the problem that's been keeping me from finishing that theme this entire time. SO! perhaps we'll keep the purple and yellow after all! guess we'll find out once the big update rolls out.

lately i've been doing really well, but i've noticed that i'm struggling a lot more to manage my ADHD day-to-day. there are a few reasons why i think this is happening, but for the most part i honestly think the issue is that because my lifestyle has changed so dramatically, the meds that worked when i was unemploye and sedentary aren't nearly as effective when i'm employed and extremely active.

speaking of which - i got an electric bike! it's a big, heavy, old bike that i got secondhand just a couple of days ago. it's also really tall. i'm still figuring it out - but i really, really like it! it's certainly making my rides to and from work a lot easier. it's a mountain bike too so it's SUPER stable, which i prefer over speed.

lately, all i've been listening to is metal. this is gonna be reflected in my august playlist once i do it, i'm certain. right now i'm SUPER into kittie, hazzerd, and system of a down. i'm finding that my favourite styles of metal are really intense speed/power metal, and stuff with interesting vocals and screams. a beloved friend and i had a metal night the other week that was extremely fun! we just sat around and smoked and chatted and listened to my friend's music. they're much more into doom, stoner and sludge metal than i am, but we both love all of it. when we were talking about the genre, they said that doom metal feels like a comforting, warm blanket to them. i think i feel similarly about speed metal, though the relaxation i feel is more that speed metal kind of provides an outlet how fast my brain goes and how much is going on. it matches my pace and that's comforting for me!

i'm getting pretty strong from work, and my bosses have consistently given me good feedback. i was late for one of my shifts recently and that night i had a dream that i was late again and my boss texted me "Time 2 die". i have not stopped thinking about that for the past week. i keep forgetting to tell her but i think she'll find it as funny as i do.

leaving it here for now - i'm working on a lop story so i don't wanna spend all my energy on this blog post. :)